«العتاب» في جوهره لغة خفية لا تقال إلا لمن يسكن القلب، ولا يوجه إلا لمن يترك في الروح أثراً لا يمحى.. هو ليس نزاعاً على كلمة أو موقف عابر، بل محاولة لترجمة مشاعر تتزاحم في القلب ولا تجد منفذاً إلا عبر البوح.. إنه (اي العتاب) كالمطر، يبدأ غيماً مُثقلاً، ثم ينهمر ليغسل شوارع النفس المزدحمة بالتراكمات. حين أعاتبك، فأنا في الحقيقة أصرخ بصوتٍ لا يُسمع: «لا أريد أن أخسرك، أرجوك افهمني قبل أن يخذلني الصمت»؟.
في لحظة العتاب، يصبح القلب هو المتحدث الأوحد، وتختفي الأقنعة التي نرتديها أمام العالم.. يظهر الإنسان بضعفه وحنانه، بشوقه وخوفه، وبكل ما يخفيه خلف كبريائه.. إنه إعلان غير مباشر بأنك ما زلت تسكنني رغم كل الخيبات والظروف والصعوبات.
أحياناً، يكون العتاب شبيهاً بمحاولة إعادة بناء جسر تصدّع.. الكلمات فيه ليست مرتّبة، والمشاعر قد تكون ملخبطة، لكن خلف ذلك الارتباك شوقٌ دفين لإعادة الوصل.. هو ليس ندماً على وجودك، بل خوف من غيابك.. إنه القلق الخفيّ من أن تتلاشى العلاقة شيئاً فشيئاً، وأن تُطفئ المسافات نار المودة التي بيننا.
هو دعوة صامتة للصراحة.. نافذة نطلّ منها على أعماق بعضنا البعض بلا حواجز، حتى نسمح لتلك المشاعر الصادقة أن تُرمّم ما هدمه سوء الفهم.. قد يكون مؤلماً، لكنه يحمل بين طياته بذور النجاة؛ هو الطريق الذي قد يقود علاقاتنا المتعبة إلى برّ الأمان.
لا تهرب من العتاب، ولا تُسيء فهمه.. استمع إليه كمن يصغي إلى قلب يخشى أن يفقدك.. لغة قلب مخلص يحاول بكل ما فيه من صدق أن يترجم نبضاته إلى كلمات.
وأنا أكتب لك الآن، لست أعاتبك لأجل الماضي، بل لأني أريد أن يبقى المستقبل بيننا أجمل. أعاتبك لأنك ما زلت أغلى ما أملك، ولأن صمتي عنك سيكون وجعاً أكبر من أي كلمة قد أقولها لك. فلا تجعل من عتابي سبباً للبعد، بل اجعله دليلاً على أني ما زلت هنا، أتمسّك بك، وأنتظرك أن تفهمني قبل أن يخذلني الصمت.
تابع قناة عكاظ على الواتساب
أحمد علي بكري
"Reproach" in its essence is a hidden language that is only spoken to those who dwell in the heart, and is directed only at those who leave an indelible mark on the soul. It is not a dispute over a word or a fleeting moment, but an attempt to translate feelings that crowd the heart and find no outlet except through confession. It is (i.e., reproach) like rain, starting as heavy clouds, then pouring down to wash the streets of the soul crowded with accumulations. When I reproach you, I am, in fact, shouting in a voice that cannot be heard: "I do not want to lose you, please understand me before silence betrays me."
In the moment of reproach, the heart becomes the sole speaker, and the masks we wear in front of the world disappear. The person appears with their weakness and tenderness, with their longing and fear, and with everything they hide behind their pride. It is an indirect declaration that you still reside within me despite all the disappointments, circumstances, and difficulties.
Sometimes, reproach resembles an attempt to rebuild a shattered bridge. The words in it are not organized, and the feelings may be mixed up, but behind that confusion lies a deep longing to reconnect. It is not regret for your existence, but fear of your absence. It is the hidden anxiety that the relationship may fade away little by little, and that distances will extinguish the fire of affection between us.
It is a silent invitation to honesty... a window through which we glimpse each other's depths without barriers, allowing those sincere feelings to mend what misunderstanding has destroyed. It may be painful, but it carries within it the seeds of salvation; it is the path that may lead our weary relationships to safety.
Do not run away from reproach, and do not misunderstand it. Listen to it as one listens to a heart that fears losing you... the language of a loyal heart trying with all its sincerity to translate its pulses into words.
As I write to you now, I am not reproaching you for the past, but because I want the future between us to remain beautiful. I reproach you because you are still the most precious thing I have, and because my silence about you would be a pain greater than any word I could say to you. So do not make my reproach a reason for distance, but make it a testament that I am still here, holding on to you, and waiting for you to understand me before silence betrays me.
In the moment of reproach, the heart becomes the sole speaker, and the masks we wear in front of the world disappear. The person appears with their weakness and tenderness, with their longing and fear, and with everything they hide behind their pride. It is an indirect declaration that you still reside within me despite all the disappointments, circumstances, and difficulties.
Sometimes, reproach resembles an attempt to rebuild a shattered bridge. The words in it are not organized, and the feelings may be mixed up, but behind that confusion lies a deep longing to reconnect. It is not regret for your existence, but fear of your absence. It is the hidden anxiety that the relationship may fade away little by little, and that distances will extinguish the fire of affection between us.
It is a silent invitation to honesty... a window through which we glimpse each other's depths without barriers, allowing those sincere feelings to mend what misunderstanding has destroyed. It may be painful, but it carries within it the seeds of salvation; it is the path that may lead our weary relationships to safety.
Do not run away from reproach, and do not misunderstand it. Listen to it as one listens to a heart that fears losing you... the language of a loyal heart trying with all its sincerity to translate its pulses into words.
As I write to you now, I am not reproaching you for the past, but because I want the future between us to remain beautiful. I reproach you because you are still the most precious thing I have, and because my silence about you would be a pain greater than any word I could say to you. So do not make my reproach a reason for distance, but make it a testament that I am still here, holding on to you, and waiting for you to understand me before silence betrays me.


